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Tyler's Tumor

I had a Shaken Baby Board meeting yesterday and after the meeting I decided to swing by and see the Seamons. I have been thinking about them and wanting to stop by. I wish it were easier for me to maintain contact with Ty, but things aren't the same. And that's okay. But it has been a journey for me to become okay with it. Up until recently, I was sad about how things are so different, but now I realize everything is as it should be. Life has a way "flowing," and we should just go with the flow.

Rebecca and Tyler were emotional. They had just received their MRI results. Tyler's tumor is growing. He has less time than originally predicted. The docs say he'll be gone before Christmas.

We talked about death. He's ready and not afraid. I'm glad to hear him say that. I was equally glad to hear Rebecca feel brave too. I know Tyler will be fine. He's a damn fine soul. I would say I'm going to miss him, but I already do. I feel that I lost him a long time ago. We've all moved on.  I try to tell myself that's okay, because it is. Nothing stays the same. Everything is always unfolding. Lives that never changed would be lame anyway.

I'm grateful for the memories. I'll never forget that day at the elementary when Tyler ran after that stupid diabolo and caught it on his kite string with Matt. I'll never forget Tyler doing my #ManHunt video and telling the world about how I "process things verbally." Tyler taught me so much about life and myself. I love him. I'm excited for him and his family. I have been able to watch them grow so close. It has been tender and worth the pounding. All is well. All is well.
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