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Don't Confine Me To A Quarter

I just had a thought today as I was on my walk. I was thinking about last Sunday when Tyler and I decided that our sign--after his passing--would be a quarter. You see, one of my favorite songs that Ty's band, Nine Spine Stickleback, sang was about a quarter, an alien space ship, and a call home. Everytime I see a quarter I will think of Tyler and I told him to leave quarters in random places for me to find so that we can continue to communicate with each other.

And then today as I was walking a guy came skating by me on his longboard and I thought of Tyler and how he gave me my epic longboard for my birthday. My mind was then flooded with all the things that remind me of Tyler such as kites, diabolos, juggling balls, pristine hair cuts, classic toys,  CrossFit, rowing, burpees, shoulder presses, Italian food, Italy, pizza, pasta, KickFire and so much more, and my mind screamed, "Don't confine me to a quarter!"

A quarter cannot contain all the ways Tyler will continue to communicate with me. Everyrhing I listed above are tied to treasured memories that I get to keep with me after he parts. And so I will never be completely bereft of T. He will ever be with me in myriads of memories.

So I'm not going to confine Tyler to a quarter. I'm going to carry him with me in all my memories. It's a small change that has already paid big dividends.


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